I was looking back over my blog and realized the last time I posted about breastfeeding I was still actively in the middle of doing it.

I just thought I would update that I made it to 10 months pumping what I could and supplementing the rest. I finally gave up because as he was getting older I could go out with him in public but I didn't feel comfortable pumping in public and was having to go longer and longer between pumpings. My chest was constantly aching and I didn't want to hold him, I would leak if I went to long (which was usually) and I wasn't making enough milk to justify me going through all that with him. I'd been afraid I wasn't going to make it past three weeks at one point so to have gotten as far as I did I'm very proud of.

Do I want to try breastfeeding again? Absolutely, if I ever have another kid I hope to exclusively breastfeed. I had lots of resources and help but looking back I can see mistakes I made, I didn't get help right away. I went a week before I went to a lactation meeting because the first one I could have gone to would have been the day I was out of the hospital. Then I felt too anxious to keep going back and getting the support I needed because I was supplementing and sore from my c-section and just overwhelmed.

While I don't regret supplementing, I don't know that it was necessary. I think if we had gotten the help we needed I would have easily made enough milk with him getting the proper latch, but for a long while I was convinced my body just couldn't make enough for him and I do think that by supplementing and making excuses I wound up never getting the hang of it or catching up.

I hope to have a positive breastfeeding experience if we wind up having a second child, and I think I will knowing what I know now.